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By Deborah Kinnear
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| Everywhere you look today we are seeing more and more information
about Spirituality. Over the past few years, I have seen a growth explosion
in this area as people become more open about their exploration into Spirituality.
Is this a result of the expansion of the Internet information highway?
Is it a result of the new light energies that are permeating the planet?
Perhaps it is both those things and other unseen factors as well. Magazines devoted to metaphysics and "new age" information and studies are abundant. Books on channeled information regarding a new Multi-Dimensional energy and the personal experiences of many "average" people line the shelves of bookstores. The Internet has become an incredible source of information for people to evaluate for themselves and determine what fits into their journey and what doesn't. Oprah has changed the format of her show to cover areas of spiritual development and empowerment. There is no mistaking that there is an incredible shift in conscious on this planet. When I started my journey several years ago in a small, mainly middle class town, the topic of metaphysics and spirituality was something whispered in small like-minded groups. The hunger that stirs within you becomes undeniable. You know there is something outside of what you know that is so big and amazing and at the same time you know you are somehow connected to this unknown force … so you search. My journey is not unlike so many others. You read whatever you can find that resonates with you. You go with an open mind to lectures on topics that are not familiar to you and you will talk to anyone who will listen to you without looking at you as if your experiences are something for which you should seek counseling. You search for anything and everything in the hopes of filling that void you feel within you. The challenge is that at the time you cannot even define what you are feeling, but you are pulled to continue. Most importantly you put out there to friends, in your prayers or meditations the request for answers. Some of you right now are doing that which I did. You ask with an open, sincere heart for someone to come into your life that does not just talk about these experiences but actually lives them day-to-day. The energetics of such a repeated request to the Universe will get you an answer. What is that famous saying, "be careful what you ask for"? I do believe that you draw into your life what you need most to learn and with that in mind I now understand why this particular person came into mine. Of course, at that time, I was unable to see what was being set up. If I had, then my life may have played out differently. I do not look back on my life with regrets, for that is a total waste of time and energy. I would not be who I am today with the knowledge and experiences that I have acquired if things had been different. There is no right or wrong path as far as I am concerned … there are just different journeys. I was asking, nay pleading, for a spiritual teacher that could walk the talk. I wanted to know the knowledge shared by the Masters that I had read about. I am a very curious and courageous woman and reading about it was not enough. I wanted to know that which I was reading about, that what I was experiencing now again, was something that could be maintained. I wanted to experience what was called enlightenment. I wanted to know someone "real" in my world could attain this. Keeping in line with the conventional concepts regarding enlightenment and spiritual teachers, it then happened. Into my life came this "spiritual teacher". He proclaimed to be enlightened and he was very dynamic. There was an undeniable energy about him that was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. He lived an unconventional approach to life and he spoke eloquently of the Eternal Teachings of the Masters. What he was teaching resonated with me so much. I began to feel a connection to that emptiness within. I started to understand what I was searching for and the information he shared felt so complete and for some reason familiar. He quickly became a friend and praised me as true seeker. Life started to change quickly for me and many opportunities opened. Within a few months of meeting this man, I was brought into "the inner circle" of this organization as his assistant and confidant. This man told me that I was receiving an opportunity that few receive, the opportunity to learn from a Master! I believed my prayers had been answered. I believed that I was a rare and special jewel that had earned the right to walk with and learn from a Master. I mentioned earlier that we draw into us that which we need most to learn and at that time my focus was on learning about spirituality. I was searching for answers as to why I had felt like a misfit in this world. Why I knew and experienced things that others in my family and circle did not. I did not see the immediate lesson that was about to unfold. After time and close association with this teacher, the illusion began to fall away. His human behaviors no longer lined up with what was taught in the lectures and seminars. More and more I became aware of the major discrepancies between what was taught and what was lived. When I started to question these discrepancies the emotional button pushing and then eventually the all out emotional abuse started to take place. Oddly enough those experiences also coincided with my source of income drying up. I learned painful lessons of self-importance and ego. I was told that this was the way of teaching by the Masters, teachings of such things as detachment. Convinced that enduring such cruelty was the test of a true student in search of learning from a Master, I blindly believed and endured for some time. The realizations that took place as the illusion of who this man really was had caused me incredible pain and suffering. With the unveiling of this man, my life came crashing down. I had hit an unbelievable low. I had felt like an unbelievable fool. I had trusted this Minister as being what he said he was. More importantly, someone whom I thought was a dear friend had betrayed me. I found out later his organization is not totally legitimate. What devastated me the most was the believing that my own judgment was no longer something I could follow. That had been what I had relied on the most throughout my life and now I felt that it had been taken away from me. I felt violated in a way I didn't even know could happen. My optimism had been destroyed and my spirit crushed beneath the weight of all his illusions and lies. I had literally lost the will to go on with my life. It was the night before my 40th birthday that my life was given back to me. It was during my sleep when I started to have this incredible inner experience. By this time in my spiritual journey, I was well experienced with our existence within other planes and realities and I knew that when the will to live in this realm truly ceases that crossing over is not hard. This evening I found myself floating on the water. It was warm and caressing. For the first time in a very long time my body did not hurt, my mind was at peace and my heart was filling with a calmness that was indefinable. All I remembered was, wanting to go home. My body started to sink slowly and the calmness continued within me. I was aware that I had now drifted below the water and there was a brilliant warm light I could see through the bubbles in the water and I knew I would be home soon. Then the unimaginable happened. A booming voice very loudly called out my name. "Deborah, don't! Please don't do this." It was so loud I felt that I was hearing it within my room and I was jolted back to this realm. Laying still, as if frozen, I realized what had been happening to me. I was beginning to cross over out of this life. I continued to be aware of this loving energetic presence. He asked me, "to consider hanging around a little longer, that there was so much more he wanted to show me". He acknowledged the pain I had been going through and he assured me that there was something wonderful to be born from it. His presence was gentle, loving and a bit familiar to me. His energy was very much like the loving energy I was feeling in my returning home. It was an angelic feeling to me. He said to me that in time I would understand what was to be learned from this and that he would be there with me very soon. I remember lying there in bed afterwards wide-awake like a hoot owl with the conversation running over and over in my mind. I didn't so much as wiggle a finger for over an hour after that experience. It was the night I was given my life back by this incredible being of love and light. A few weeks later, I would come to realize that this incredible being on the inner was a man I had met a few months before and had been working with through email on an website. I will call him Stephen. I discovered that he was an experienced inner traveler and was a healer and teacher on the inner realms or dimensions. During the following few months we explored our abilities to communicate with each other on an inner "telepathic" level …. but that is for another story J Through the experiences with Stephen, I was rediscovering other dimensions and who I was. These things were not new to me as I had been aware of similar experiences all my life, remembering such experiences from when I was about two. I regained confidence in myself and in what I experienced. With this connection and shared experiences as well as encouragement from this incredibly conscious inner traveler and teacher, I began to see my existence in an expanded way. I began to meet with other incredible teachers and Beings of Light. I became aware of the Eternal Masters I had read about through my own interactions with them. I was learning, or more correctly stated, I was remembering who I was …. Who we all are. I was introduced to the using of the energy we are now calling on this planet Multi-Dimensional healing energy. I have been embraced in a love that is incredible and very difficult to describe. I have come to realize that what I had drawn into my life with the other man that claimed to be an enlightened spiritual teacher and Master were lessons of independence and self-reliance. I was raised in a very protected and controlled environment. My world was considerably safe and I was sheltered from many things growing up. With my getting through this experience of him, I realized that no one would ever cause me to doubt my inner voice or spirit again. I also learned that my integrity was the vary fabric of my soul. That any kind of misrepresentations of my truth would tear at that very fabric, even white lies told to avoid confrontation or participating in someone else's lies as a test to my loyalty, results in the disintegration of my own personal integrity. I also realized that what I could give back to the universe for the lessons learned was the realization that I was not a victim. In spite of how things ended with this teacher and what he would have me believe, I did not do anything wrong to receive such abusive behavior. I was not a bad person or stupid for being with, and wanting to believe in, what this very dynamic and manipulative individual was teaching. What I was, however, was innocent and ignorant. Ignorance is just a lack of knowing. Knowledge is power and can allow us to make our decisions based on a position of awareness and not blind faith. I learned that fear is the ingredient that allows others to control and manipulate us. As a result of working with the Multi-Dimensional energy and the true loving Masters on the inner, I can say with great love in my heart that I thank him for all he taught me but mostly for showing me what I do not what to be. I wish him well on his journey of choice. It is because of what I learned that I share this information now. We are all rare jewels, special within our human individuality and all have earned the right to walk with the true Masters. They are available to each and every one of us. The energy of this time on the planet makes working with these wonderful beings of light and love available to each and everyone of us. All we have to do is look within. To go inside ourselves and explore the inner realms, explore your multi-dimensional Beingness and allow the love energy to permeate your life. This is where you will find the spiritual guidance you seek. Self- empowerment or remembering your authentic self is the true journey we are all on and there are many tools, books and loving individuals to help you do this. Through my experience however, I have learned that when someone comes to you and proclaims to be a Master or a chosen one and then requires you to abandon that which you are and what you experience to attain spiritual wisdom (usually for a substantial monetary price) they are probably not what they proclaim. Earthly gurus or Maters as well as controlling organizations with austere practices and conformist attitudes are the way of a bygone era of spiritual disciplines. Today the earth is being showered with an energy that can assist each and everyone whose intentions are to do so, establish the connection to their spirit, to their authentic self. Would I have made the same choices if I had the information I am going to share with you below? I don't know. The point is simply … I didn't have it. If all is as it is meant to be, then perhaps I went through this so that I could share my experience with others so that ignorance is not part of their equation or lesson. Are all Masters created equally? I have come to experience Masters on what I refer to as the inner realms and there are some very basic similarities. Through my direct experience, I realize this man is not a Spiritual Master but is a master of energy manipulation. He works with fear and control and the illusion of love. It has been incredible regaining of my spirit. In doing so however, I have found that within us all lays the potential to walk the path of the great Masters and it is done through LOVE and LIGHT. Anything else is an illusion of mastery. The material following this article in quotes is taken from a book written in 1939, by Julian F. Johnson called " The Path of the Masters". I have taken this section from the chapter called The Masters and Their Duties - Section 7 - Objective Indices of Mastership. Even during the old energy there were guidelines to protect you from being mislead by those seeking to control others. I hope this will help those who are searching to realize that not all those who are out there in this world are what they claim to be, but you can learn some very powerful lessons from them. Whenever possible make informed choices though - life is a gift - and mine was given back to me by what I call an earth angel. May you all have an earth angel in your life at your time of need. Continue on your journey with smiles, laughter and much love ………. Deborah J "We mean by objective indices that sort of evidence which other people, anybody, may see and understand. In addition to all that has been said about Masters, there are a few infallible indices which serve to distinguish real Masters for all others who may pose as masters. Some of them are:
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